Mica, I miss hanging out with you, you hurt me and I was angry at you, I got attached to you and perhaps it freaked you out. But years later and I still feel that gap inside of me since we went separate paths.
I miss your company, even though we never talked that much, we still had some amazing times together. I just miss knowing that you were there. Loosing that made me loose all hope in life, I have the scars and deformities to show, the surgeries never end.
And I will always hold our earlier memories. From when you seemed to care about our friendship, and I felt I meant something to you, and when you gave your time to me and you let me give mine to you. From when we shared each others company in those memories, and found playtime in this thing called life.
Guess what, years later and I’m still alive, and stronger than ever, I’m still fighting, and I hope and trust you are too because I know how strong you are! And even though every day it pains, I will continue to keep out your life because you mean something to me till my death (this is my selfish promise from when we first became friends, it is my scar). And i’ll forever be sorry that I said those ugly things, I never meant to hurt you. I deserve the nightmares that will forever haunt me.
I wish you happiness in this life Micaela.